Never mind how life works. It's been hard work just to set my mind towards love. However, now and then, all seem to be settled down, in order, but two years from now it has been chaos, somehow it is not improving. It is great to do new things with new people, especially when they supply you with new energy. But on the other hand, it could be dangerous.
The rules are simple, no commitment, just having fun and keep it under a sepulcral silence. I don't know where this will take us but for now it is time to enjoy. Hope I don't regret about it later, but for now, just wanna live the moment!
Still praying for a miracle, hoping to get you-know-who back. It's positive there are still feelings at the bottom, but powerful ones. Crossing my fingers.
Pd. note, you-know-who does not refers to voldemort in any way. Just in case, one never knows.
domingo 22 de enero de 2012
domingo 15 de enero de 2012
Something about me:
The household I grew up in... is now rented to another family. It was my grandmas' house.
When I was a child I wanted to be... a teacher.
You wouldn't know it but I am very good at... running. The feeling that you can run from everything is amazing and then, the pride and happiness when you reach the goal is something indescribable.
You may not know it but I'm no good at... Sports. Basketball, Voleyball, Tennis even ping pong are difficult for me. Lucky in business, useless at sports.
At night I dream of... Someone who is far away, the other side of the world.
I wish I had never worn... those "candy" look and accesories. That was a crazy stage of my life.
What I see when I look in the mirror... A very smart girl looking back at me.
My favourite item of clothing... Dresses.
It's not fashionable but I like... to sleep with my socks still on.
My favourite building... Empire State, NY. The view is amazing and Manhattan looks so beautiful up there.
A book that changed me... Brida - Paulo Coelho. It remind me of someone who I loved very much and now is not here.
Movie heaven... Finding nemo, it's funny and brilliant.
The last album I bought... Lenny Kravitz, Greatest hits. On iTunes.
My greatest regret... Didn't say I love you when I had the chance because I was too proud to say it.
My secret crush... CBM.
My real-life villain... Social rules, love is ageless.
The last time I cried... Last week. Heard some bad news and I realized it was too late to do something.
My five-year plan... Be strong, brave and continue studying. Give love a chance again.
My life in six words... Nerd, friendly, passionate, avid reader, Idioms lover, no regrets.
domingo 7 de agosto de 2011
I Miss you!
It's late and I've just realized how much time I use to think about you... The distance that is setting us apart is dark, cold and horrible that makes me feel idle and hopeless about all of this. I wish I could make the time run backwards and have you again by my side, but these are only fantasies that begun since the happy times we lived together. In spite of everything we went through, I have to be honest and admit that those were the happiest times of my life regarding love issues and I regret I never told you that, never expressed those feelings... You know, It's me being so proud to admit it... Nevertheless, in this moment I haven't found the necessary strength to let it go, to turn away and forget because It's the most difficult thing I've ever had to do.
Should I ever go to Russia to find you? it's a crossways decision because, as always, it's full of pro's and con's... You, different from me, already chose a woman. I'm not sure if she's good or bad because I don't know her but it's certain that you are galaxies over me and it makes me feel very sad. In contrast, I haven't been able to find someone to replace you, everybody seem to be so superficial and it's not been easy to date and find someone like you. At this point, Im so depressed to admit that Im not over you.
Well, let the world know that I love you, that if could go back to you I'll do it just right now. Just send me a signal....
Hope to see you soon.
Should I ever go to Russia to find you? it's a crossways decision because, as always, it's full of pro's and con's... You, different from me, already chose a woman. I'm not sure if she's good or bad because I don't know her but it's certain that you are galaxies over me and it makes me feel very sad. In contrast, I haven't been able to find someone to replace you, everybody seem to be so superficial and it's not been easy to date and find someone like you. At this point, Im so depressed to admit that Im not over you.
Well, let the world know that I love you, that if could go back to you I'll do it just right now. Just send me a signal....
Hope to see you soon.
domingo 16 de enero de 2011
Ain't no love for me...
Love is though and difficult. it's been a hard way, all along I haven't been satisfied and I always end in something I did not desired. Not so good for a girl who likes everything done in the best way possible, if perfect, much better! Maybe the universe's laws about contrary things have to do something in this, maybe that's why people say that you can be lucky in love or in business but not both ... blah, blah, blah.
There are three main causes of this: let´s use fake names, let´s say; Frederick, Xavier and Manny. Not so good.
Frederick is married and I have a crush on him, Xavier left the country and I never told him how much I loved him and Manny, He's great and I care about him and Im afraid he doesn't care about me as I do for him.
The story of my life. Now it's been weird. Xavier has a new girl in the snow country, Frederick (OMG he's so yummy but he's married so I keep my safety distance) and Manny, he is so weird I dunno if he loves me or not, and he's miles and miles away from me, so I can't ask him directly.
OMG, im confused and sad. I feel lonely. I wish I could have someone by my side to care about me, but unfortunately Im successful but I have no one to share with, this success. I don't want to be like this, in depression for everything. But I don't feel comfortable dating other guys, maybe It's difficult to let go lots of memories and stuff... I wish I could have at least one but I dunno what to do.
Paulo Coelho wrote in his book, brida, that soulmates join for a limited period of time during every stage of the soul lives. Im afraid my time was gone when Xavier left the country, I haven't feel the same since he left. But now it's too late to tell.
Tomorrow sun will shine again in the sky. New adventures, new people.
I've decided I'll go for Manny, he makes me feel brave, no fear of heights or the blue sea (like the song which im listening to right now)... Hope he waits for me, i'll cross my fingers.
See you mates.
Bye
There are three main causes of this: let´s use fake names, let´s say; Frederick, Xavier and Manny. Not so good.
Frederick is married and I have a crush on him, Xavier left the country and I never told him how much I loved him and Manny, He's great and I care about him and Im afraid he doesn't care about me as I do for him.
The story of my life. Now it's been weird. Xavier has a new girl in the snow country, Frederick (OMG he's so yummy but he's married so I keep my safety distance) and Manny, he is so weird I dunno if he loves me or not, and he's miles and miles away from me, so I can't ask him directly.
OMG, im confused and sad. I feel lonely. I wish I could have someone by my side to care about me, but unfortunately Im successful but I have no one to share with, this success. I don't want to be like this, in depression for everything. But I don't feel comfortable dating other guys, maybe It's difficult to let go lots of memories and stuff... I wish I could have at least one but I dunno what to do.
Paulo Coelho wrote in his book, brida, that soulmates join for a limited period of time during every stage of the soul lives. Im afraid my time was gone when Xavier left the country, I haven't feel the same since he left. But now it's too late to tell.
Tomorrow sun will shine again in the sky. New adventures, new people.
I've decided I'll go for Manny, he makes me feel brave, no fear of heights or the blue sea (like the song which im listening to right now)... Hope he waits for me, i'll cross my fingers.
See you mates.
Bye
sábado 8 de enero de 2011
A fast and little update
Nothing much to say. Tonight it's been a really nice night, OMG I just realized how much I love my family, all of them are amazing. This has given me a lot to think about, Im really going to miss them.
Don't wanna go back to work, wish I could have more time to spend with myself. Not comfortable with my life at the moment, alone, bored, tired... mmmm.... not a good moment, for sure. Anyway, Im just taking it easy while I can get something better. I want my life back, I feel distant from my very self, maybe that's the reason why I feel depressed sometimes and surprisingly, i've discovered this is so good. If you are reading this and you think this is so sad, well, feel free to make your own conclusions.
I really wanna change my work, I am working on getting that new job no matter what it takes. let's wait and see.
On the other hand, I miss you boy. Im so sad I never told you the way I felt about you before. Regrets don' work. Too late.
I think it's enough for today. See you soon. I know it's boring to read all this sh*t.
Night night, sleep tight.
:)
Don't wanna go back to work, wish I could have more time to spend with myself. Not comfortable with my life at the moment, alone, bored, tired... mmmm.... not a good moment, for sure. Anyway, Im just taking it easy while I can get something better. I want my life back, I feel distant from my very self, maybe that's the reason why I feel depressed sometimes and surprisingly, i've discovered this is so good. If you are reading this and you think this is so sad, well, feel free to make your own conclusions.
I really wanna change my work, I am working on getting that new job no matter what it takes. let's wait and see.
On the other hand, I miss you boy. Im so sad I never told you the way I felt about you before. Regrets don' work. Too late.
I think it's enough for today. See you soon. I know it's boring to read all this sh*t.
Night night, sleep tight.
:)
martes 4 de enero de 2011
I wish
Today, my whole life confronted me like a poisoned arrow, the possibility of going through two separate paths and a decision I will have to make. Everything you wish is possible, but what happens when you wish two things that are not possible to be done at the same time and at the same place? ... though decision...
I wish this opportunity like nothing I have desired in my whole life... Nice place, perfect timing, perfect chance. And Im so sure that this is gonna be mine, just mine and no one else's. I want it so bad that nobody is taking that away from me. I know, I just know...
But on the other hand, Im I ever going to see you again Darling? I was hoping to be closer to you, geographically speaking but sadly, I think our moment just ended and there's no more chance to see you again. I loved you with the very deep strenght of my heart and never told ya, so fucking sorry. Now, it's too late. More than late.
Never imagined that my life could turn into this, 2 paths to choose. Nevertheless, Im positive this is gonna end well for me. I've been good and good things happen to good people. Im so sure Im having this, otherwise, I think im going to visit you sometime, while I live in which I've though will be my life prospect in that place.
Oh my gosh, melancholy today, many emotions to handle...
I wish this opportunity like nothing I have desired in my whole life... Nice place, perfect timing, perfect chance. And Im so sure that this is gonna be mine, just mine and no one else's. I want it so bad that nobody is taking that away from me. I know, I just know...
But on the other hand, Im I ever going to see you again Darling? I was hoping to be closer to you, geographically speaking but sadly, I think our moment just ended and there's no more chance to see you again. I loved you with the very deep strenght of my heart and never told ya, so fucking sorry. Now, it's too late. More than late.
Never imagined that my life could turn into this, 2 paths to choose. Nevertheless, Im positive this is gonna end well for me. I've been good and good things happen to good people. Im so sure Im having this, otherwise, I think im going to visit you sometime, while I live in which I've though will be my life prospect in that place.
Oh my gosh, melancholy today, many emotions to handle...
martes 2 de febrero de 2010
Bad Manners nowadays!
Nowadays good manners and behaviour had been losing importance making people believe they are less important resulting in decrease for other people respect. In this essay, the causes of this phenomenon are going to be explained and some posible hypotetical solutions will be set.
Since 2000's started, a whole revolution began its progress. Being Open minded is the equivalent of being modern and one active participant of this revolution, so, rules from the past are being modified to make them less compromising and exigent, therefore good manners are being re-evaluated in order to decide wether or not using them. Besides, in these present times, relationships between human beings had evolved into a more relaxed situation in which no Mr, Mrs, Pardon, or else is mandatory, to become optional. Actually, many people agree with this situation but many other think that respect is being lost. Another cause for this could be the new way to raise children into a more free world where barriers are going down and parents are friends and no longer, dictators, making a new atmosphere for interaction. This atmosphere has conducted to a new way and level of respect expression. As a matter of fact, good manners are always important in formal situations because they are demanded for people. It is so sad that they are becoming less valuable because they are really important, especially for showing respect toward someone.
Thinking about some solutions is a very difficult task requiring some quality effort. An interesting idea would be teaching etiquette clases in the schools to make young people think again and consider the importance of a good behaviour when directing to important people and project a good image. In addition to, parents have an important role showing their children how to act respectfully but not overreacting and exagerating. But the most important thing that can be done is that we all people, ask for respect everywhere and whenever, because if people do not ask for it, people will not receive it. Good manners must be required in restaurants, in theathers and public locations just to make life easier. It is a task that everyone must complete just to be sure respect is received in the same way that it is given. Summarizing, the starting point for a solution is everyone reviewing if their good manners are appropiate or innapropiate.
In conclusion, manners are losing importance for the ideas evolution in time but there are lots of things to do to stop this losing of importance. Everyone has the power in their hands to change this situation.
Since 2000's started, a whole revolution began its progress. Being Open minded is the equivalent of being modern and one active participant of this revolution, so, rules from the past are being modified to make them less compromising and exigent, therefore good manners are being re-evaluated in order to decide wether or not using them. Besides, in these present times, relationships between human beings had evolved into a more relaxed situation in which no Mr, Mrs, Pardon, or else is mandatory, to become optional. Actually, many people agree with this situation but many other think that respect is being lost. Another cause for this could be the new way to raise children into a more free world where barriers are going down and parents are friends and no longer, dictators, making a new atmosphere for interaction. This atmosphere has conducted to a new way and level of respect expression. As a matter of fact, good manners are always important in formal situations because they are demanded for people. It is so sad that they are becoming less valuable because they are really important, especially for showing respect toward someone.
Thinking about some solutions is a very difficult task requiring some quality effort. An interesting idea would be teaching etiquette clases in the schools to make young people think again and consider the importance of a good behaviour when directing to important people and project a good image. In addition to, parents have an important role showing their children how to act respectfully but not overreacting and exagerating. But the most important thing that can be done is that we all people, ask for respect everywhere and whenever, because if people do not ask for it, people will not receive it. Good manners must be required in restaurants, in theathers and public locations just to make life easier. It is a task that everyone must complete just to be sure respect is received in the same way that it is given. Summarizing, the starting point for a solution is everyone reviewing if their good manners are appropiate or innapropiate.
In conclusion, manners are losing importance for the ideas evolution in time but there are lots of things to do to stop this losing of importance. Everyone has the power in their hands to change this situation.
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